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Blood Group Personality.

2009-01-23T22:46:00.000-08:00

A few days ago, I read an interesting post on my friend's blog http://www.matchingbutterflies.blogspot.com/ about blood group personality which is supposedly very famous in Japan and now in Korea, I got quite interested on it so I went and did some digging and found a nice table stating the characteristics of the different blood group. Enjoy yourself ya. Tell me if you find it true or not.

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Set The Fire To The Third Bar.

2008-08-18T11:46:00.001-07:00

your voice in my memories, are like music to me...
i pray that something picks me up, and puts me down in your warm arms..

"Set The Fire To The Third Bar"
(feat. Martha Wainwright)

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My finger in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

Indescribable

2008-08-03T21:19:00.000-07:00

Last night, i was at the passion world tour. So it was just me, jon, brian and cheekeen came late.
My first impression was.. woah.. im too fly for this people, why are they screaming and que-ing up so early for. bunch of no life n00bs.. chill ler..

So we went in, after a long wait, and managed to secure the last row of seat in the middle column,
and stoned awhile while waiting for the worship to start. As it started and we worshiped, it was all good, but i'll eloborate more later. We were told to get in groups of 3's and praise God. One person leads, and somehow the big indian guy always gets it. So i did worship, faith is all i had left in me right. It did go good, esp when the other 2 im holding hands with say amen and encourage me. not bad, the other stranger i was holding hands with was a final year medical student from PMC. Her famous wise words to me "You have many more years to suffer".

Right, so later on Louie came on stage with a girls journal, and guess what, read it on stage. yeap total invasion of privacy. just be warned, im not your holy holy holy christian. so read at your own risk. There was this *blanked up* girl who lived a *blanked up* life.. just like mine, with no meaning, no value, corrupted to the core, basically no aim.

*fast forward freeze frame* In the end she found that, God still loves her, no matter what she does, did or done, Jesus died for her sins, she is forgiven, set free.

This is the song we sang:

The last line of the song, after describing the wisdom, knowledge, creativity and understanding of God. Finally said this..

"You know the depths of my heart,
and You still love me the same,
You are amazing God"

I am embarassed of the depths of my heart, who knows whats inside there. Evil thoughts, lies,
man its just a rubbish bin, which i myself dont look into, broken heart, charred remains for people i used to love, scars of people who back stabbed me, all the anger and hate inside.

Yet, God sees all that, and loves me the same.

I dont know about you, but I need that love, not a fake love, not a love because they need something for me. but a selfless love, because he finds joy in me.

A Peek Into my Mind.

2008-07-04T11:54:00.001-07:00

I'm just putting my thoughts here, wondering what will it be like echoing off the streets.
I have just sucessfully failed EOS. That C- for my OSCE made me realise im not invincible anymore.

"Life isnt all about winning, but its about the lesson learnt in the process"

winning alone, doesnt make me a better person, but if I lose today, but learnt to be stronger for another day, then I have accomplished enough.

Undo everything I did wrong, come clean, come stronger then ever.

My dreams aren't shattered, they are being put under pressure, being knocked into perfection.

I'll be back with a pass. God be with me. I am not afraid.

David Guetta - Love Is Gone (feat. Chris Willis)

2008-06-02T02:57:00.000-07:00

David Guetta

Love Is Gone (feat. Chris Willis)

Love Is Gone

Now that the love is gone...

What are we suppose to do
After all that we've been through
Where everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone
Love is gone....

What are we suppose to do
After all that we've been through
Where everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone

There is nothing else to proof
Now you still deny the simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that love is gone
Love is gone...

Now that the love is gone
Every felt so right so wrong
Now that the love is gone

I feel so hurt inside
Feel so hurt inside
Got to find a reason

What are we suppose to do
After all that we've been through
Where everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone

There is nothing else to proof
Now you still deny the simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that love is gone
Love is gone...

Got to find a reason (x5)
To hold on

Love... There's nothing left for us to say
Love... Why can't we gently walk away

What are we suppose to do
After all that we've been through
Where everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone

There is nothing else to proof
Now you still deny the simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that love is gone
Love is gone...

What are we suppose to do
After all that we've been through
Where everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone
Love is gone....

Superhuman (ft Keri Hilson) - Chris Brown

2008-05-29T21:26:00.000-07:00

This is a very meaningful song, and I love the way it sounds when they hit such high notes with their voices together. It is definitely a super song IMHO. Though the music and beat is very simple, what matters most to me most is their lyrics and voice. This the most touching line to me:

It's not a bird, not a plane.
It's my heart and its going going away
My only weakness is you , only reason is you.

Lyrics:
Verse 1]
Weak I have been crying and crying for weeks
how'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat on my knees
But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your loves done to me
Think I'm invincible I see
Through the me
I used to be

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
Superhuman all things in me
I think it's time I'm here with you
Superhuman
Superhuman
Superhuman

[Verse 2]
Strong since I've been flying and writing the wrongs
Feels like almost had it all along I can see tomorrow
But every problem is gone because I've flown everywhere but love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see
How love can set me free

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
Superhuman all things in me
I think it's time I'm here with you
Superhuman
Superhuman

[Bridge]
It's not a bird, not a plane.
It's my heart and its going going away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I feel like I can do anything
going going I'm gone away in love

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
Superhuman all things in me
I think it's time I'm here with you
Superhuman
Superhuman

additional mathematics

2008-05-28T13:48:00.000-07:00

I once struggled to score double digits for my SPM add maths paper. My average score for the year was 4, not a typo,it is 4. In A-Levels, I studied maths hard, and still I got a D. I i decided to drop add maths and I focussed on the other subjects, and right now, I'm a second year medical student, God willing I'll continue passing my exams.

I posted this if there is anyone out there, you have a dream and there is something holding you down, let it go. Focus on your strength, and let go of your weaknesses. I'm not telling you to quit something because it is hard, but to know yourself your pluses and minuses, and know your goal.

Don't listen to people when they say you need to be a certain way to make it in life, live life in your own style. Its your story that is being written right now, not theirs.

Multiple Personality Disorder.

2008-05-28T03:30:00.000-07:00

Multiple personality disorder.
Multiple personality disorder (MPD) is a chronic (recurring frequently) emotional illness. A person with MPD plays host to two or more personalities (called alters). Each alter has its own unique style of viewing and understanding the world and may have its own name. These distinct personalities periodically control that person's behavior as if several people were alternately sharing the same body.

Words to Know

Alter: Alternate personality that has split off or disassociated from the main personality, usually after severe childhood trauma.

Disassociation: Separation of a thought process or emotion from conscious awareness.

Hypnosis: Trance state during which people are highly vulnerable to the suggestions of others.

Personality: Group of characteristics that motivates behavior and sets us apart from other individuals.

Switching: Process by which an alternate personality reveals itself and controls behavior.

Trauma: An extremely severe emotional shock.

Causes of multiple personality disorder

Most people diagnosed with MPD were either physically or sexually abused as children. Many times when a young child is severely abused, he or she becomes so detached from reality that what is happening may seem more like a movie or television show than real life. This self-hypnotic state, called disassociation, is a defense mechanism that protects the child from feeling overwhelmingly intense emotions. Disassociation blocks off these thoughts and emotions so that the child is unaware of them. In effect, they become secrets, even from the child. According to the American Psychiatric Association, many MPD patients cannot remember much of their childhoods.

Secret of Success.

2008-05-27T12:48:00.000-07:00

1.Let the whole world call you a failure.
2.Try to achieve your dreams and screw up, and get laughed at on stage.
3.Fall in love with a girl and get rejected, making a fool out of yourself.
4.Stay awake and work hard day and night to achieve your goal.
5.Use all the pain and embarrassment to drive yourself.
6.Once u reach your goal, get filthy rich, and enjoy life.

*if u were 50 cent, u might want to get shot at a few times.

“You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try.”
Beverly Sills

"Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, only this time more wisely."

~ Henry Ford

"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."

~ Thomas Alva Edison

"I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. Twenty-six times I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed."

~ Michael Jordan

Curtis Mayfield - Superfly

2008-05-27T05:53:00.000-07:00

Ending the emo-ness with a feel good song, its curtis mayfield - superfly for yall =)

Darkest of night
With the moon shining bright
There's a set goin' strong
Lotta things goin' on
The man of the hour
Has an air of great power
The dudes have envied him for so long

(Chorus)
Oooh, Superfly
You're gonna make your fortune by and by
But if you lose, don't ask no questions why
The only game you know is Do or Die
Ah-ha-ha

Hard to understand
What a hell of a man
This cat of the slum
Had a mind, wasn't dumb
But a weakness was shown
'Cause his hustle was wrong
His mind was his own
But the man lived alone

Chorus

The game he plays he plays for keeps
Hustlin' times and ghetto streets
Tryin' ta get over
(That's what he tryin' to do, y'all)
Taking all that he can take
Gambling with the odds of fate
Tryin' ta get over (4x)
Woo, Superfly

The aim of his role
Was to move a lot of blow
Ask him his dream
What does it mean?
He woudn't know
"Can't be like the rest"
Is the most he'll confess
But the time's running out
And there's no happiness

Chorus
Superfly (4x)

"Tryin' ta get over..." (9x)

GLOOMY SUNDAY-BILLIE HOLIDAY VERSION

2008-05-26T08:01:00.000-07:00

"Gloomy Sunday" (from Hungarian "Szomorú Vasárnap", IPA: ['somoruː 'vɒʃarnɒp]) is a song written in 1933, by Hungarian pianist and composer Rezső Seress.It's called the hungarian suicide song, after inspiring many suicides.

I HATE THIS SONG! ONLY LISTEN IF YOU ARE BRAVE ENOUGH.I CANT TAKE IT MYSELF.

careful what u hear, it can influence u alot. rest in peace those who have committed suicide after listening to this piece of work. This song gives me goose bumps.

Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coaches
Sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Wouldnt they be angry
If I thought of joining you?

Gloomy sunday

Gloomy is sunday,
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and i
Have decided to end it all
Soon therell be candles
And prayers that are said I know
But let them not weep
Let them know that Im glad to go
Death is no dream
For in death Im caressin you
With the last breath of my soul
Ill be blessin you

Gloomy sunday

Dreaming, I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you asleep
In the deep of my heart here
Darling I hope
That my dream never haunted you
My heart is tellin you
How much I wanted you
Gloomy sunday

Radiohead - Creep

2008-05-25T03:33:00.000-07:00

WARNING-DO NOT LISTEN IF YOU ARE SUICIDAL.

One of the most emo songs i've heard in my life time. Look at the desperation on his face when he sings this song, I wish i was special... so f***ing special.. just listen to it and feel it and understand that whoever u are, whatever is happening to you, you're not the only one going through bad times.

CREEP by Radiohead (c) 1993
Pablo Honey Album

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye,

You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry,
You float like a feather,
In a beautiful world.
And I wish I was special,
You're so fucking special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control,
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul,
I want you to notice,
When I'm not around,
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

She's running out again,
She's running out
She's run run run running out...

Whatever makes you happy,
Whatever you want,
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special...

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.

Here In My Home

2008-05-21T12:04:00.000-07:00

Hi,my name is Geowin and I'm a Malaysian.I'm Proud to be a Malaysian, this song makes me even prouder.This is our home.My favorite part is 2:15 minute. Smooth rap involving all of our major languages. I hope this song will be an inspiration for all of us keep up our unity and be strong together. United we Stand.

Hold on brother hold on
The road is long. We’re on stony ground
But I’m strong. You ain’t heavy

Oh there’s a misspoken truth that lies
Colors don’t bind, oh no.
What do they know? They speak falsely.

Chorus:
Here in my home
I’ll tell you what its all about
There’s just one hope here in my heart
One Love undivided
That’s what it’s all about
Please won’t you fall in one by one by one [with me]?

Push back sister won’t you push back?
Love won’t wait. Just keep pushing on.
Yes I’m strong. You ain’t heavy.

Oh don’t you worry about that…
What we have the shadows can’t deny
Don’t you know it’s now or never?

Rap:
[Malay: TRANSLATED]
Years of fears and years of tribulation
The heart keeps searching for that endless devotion

[Chinese: TRANSLATED]
Hand in hand we’ll march like blood brothers
I speak for my people hope we’ll find peace forever

[Tamil: TRANSLATED]
May the road ahead quench my thirst for success
May the road behind echo a song of the blessed

[English]
So I will let it be known yes I feel it in my bones
No matter where I roam this is home sweet home
Sing!

- Words & Music by Pete Teo featuring rap by KLG Sqwad &
Altimet. copr Redbag Music 2008. All Rights Reserved

It was written by Pete Teo and the video was shot by Yasmin Ahmad and Ho YuFang.

Singers
Adflin Shauki / Awie / Ning Baizura / Jaclyn Victor / Reshmonu / Pete Teo / Attilia / Jason Lo / KLG Sqad / Altimet / Suki / Daniel Lee / Nikki Palikat / Melina William

Appeared in video
Tony Fernandez / Maya Karin / Harith Iskander / Adibah Nor / Singletrackmind / Stephen Chua / Izzy Mohamed / Shebby Singh / Nell Ng / Mak Ho / Badri Ibrahim / Hans Isaac / Chan Fong / Mark The / Kamal Sabran / Sharifah Amani / Ng Choo Seong / Evelyn Hii / Nurfatimah / Justin Lim / Pang Khee Teik / Jerome Kugan / January Low / Sharifah Aleya / Azmyl Yunor / Amber Chia

Day turns into Night

2008-03-03T00:42:00.000-08:00

Day Turns Into Night,
Friends come and Go,
Rain pours and flood rises,
Heart get pounded and stoned,
Note piles up higher then my head.
Is any one missing me?
am i that insignificant?
Only two things i have with me,
A basket and a ball to be my company.
Silence has its beauty,but everything beautiful was always deadly.
And Thank You God for catching me everytime I fall.
Just wishing for someone to fill the void. 3/3/08

The Sanurai creed

2007-10-19T12:55:00.000-07:00

I have no parents; I make the Heavens and the Earth my parents.
I have no home; I make the Tan T'ien my home.
I have no divine power; I make honesty my Divine Power.
I have no means; I make Docility my means.
I have no magic power; I make personality my Magic Power.
I have neither life nor death; I make A Um my Life and Death.

I have no body; I make Stoicism my Body.
I have no eyes; I make The Flash of Lightning my eyes.
I have no ears; I make Sensibility my Ears.
I have no limbs; I make Promptitude my Limbs.
I have no laws; I make Self-Protection my Laws.

I have no strategy; I make the Right to Kill and the Right to Restore Life my Strategy.
I have no designs; I make Seizing the Opportunity by the Forelock my Designs.
I have no miracles; I make Righteous Laws my Miracle.
I have no principles; I make Adaptability to all circumstances my Principle.
I have no tactics; I make Emptiness and Fullness my Tactics.

I have no talent; I make Ready Wit my Talent.
I have no friends; I make my Mind my Friend.
I have no enemy; I make Incautiousness my Enemy.
I have no armour; I make Benevolence my Armour.
I have no castle; I make Immovable Mind my Castle.
I have no sword; I make No Mind my Sword.

Grand opening

2007-10-09T05:08:00.000-07:00

This is the grand opening of my EOS studies,from this period onwards dont expect to see me in University.Im declaring holiday until EOS starts,and after that its holidays again.woohoo!
alright then lets mug!
man shud i reli post an emo blog about what happened in lecture today? but hey! atleast im more popular now.
man its hard for me to fit in the norm of the lifestyle of a medic student..go lectures,do pbl,go csu..bla bla bla...mug all day long in the library for foundation one and two while revising CVS?
man this is not me,im sure im on the right track,just maybe the wrong train.man i feel like a sinner when everyone pays attention in classes and dont skip lectures,and i skip it all the time.
and dress code? what dress code... are doctors really so stereotypic?
whats wrong with me? maybe im just suffering from short attention span,and i cant fall asleep in public.
anyway,

My name is Geowin,and my attention span is really short,because i need time to entertain my thoughts.I promise you that when im a doctor,i'll be the one thinking out of the box.

-inspired by dreams,driven by knowledge-

cough cough

2007-10-01T06:54:00.000-07:00

Ahem~ my name is geowin,im who i am,but not sure that who i want to be.i struggle with alot in life..esp in the department of confidence.Im studying medicine somewhere,but i aspire to be a DJ.Im few in words,and unexpressive at the least.This is me,in the humblest.The name of my blog..nicotine box just represents life,nicotine is a miracle,yet too much is a curse.it represents my core belief,that we have to pay the price for the life we choose,whatever action we cause,we are going to pay the price of its effects.lets just see how far we can go with this one.